In case you're reading...

I don't know if you'll ever read this.

I hope you do.

Just a few things I want you to know.

I wish you knew how much I love you;

and how much I miss you.

I had a dream about you last night.

We took Elijah to the zoo and you were the zoo keeper.

I didn't realize how perfectly fitting that was until I was thinking about this post.

The Zoo Keeper.

I don't know how we get to these places.

I'm so deeply hurt. Upset. Sad.

But not with you.

Just with the way things have turned out.

It makes my heart sad.

I know that you're going through a lot right now.

I wish I could be there for you.

I wish you wanted me to be there with you.

We talk about you to Elijah.

He loves music

and is interested in playing any and every instrument he picks up.

He gets that from you.

If you're reading this, then you know,

Elijah is going to have a little sister in just a few weeks.

There are few things I want more than for them both to know you.

You have so much to offer them that no one else can.

I love you and miss you.

Every day.

I'm here.

Always.